Clearly, I haven’t had much time to write lately. There is always a constant dialogue going on in my head of course, and lately I have been finding that I create a compelling script in my head right before I fall asleep, and the next day, I am lucky if I even remember the topic! Ok so perhaps the mental writing is not so gripping as I imagine, given I am normally creating them when I am completely exhausted, but its when I am exhausted that I find I am the most honest. I am simply too tired to pretend.
When this week is over I will again, do my best to find time to write more regularly. I did write when I was on holiday recently, but unfortunately, the patchy internet connection could not cope with WP and I have yet to upload the holiday dialogue. Perhaps this weekend, when I am taking it easy and nursing my injuries (more on that later!)….
Last year, writing kept me sane. Lately, work has stepped up a notch, and I have found (perhaps out of fatigue) that I am no longer in desperate need of that outlet to keep me from sporadically bursting into tears. My new boss is very keen to help me move in the direction I have indicated, which often means I’m biting off…well, a lot, though I am telling myself it’s not more than I can chew! It’s scary, saying yes to opportunities you are unsure you can fulfil, but I am told by mentors that this is the risk we need to take in order to prove to ourselves -and others- that we are capable of much more than we first realise.
I dont know if I know how to do what I’ve said I can do, and I don’t know if I’ll be successful at it, but I said yes anyway. Perhaps if I do fail, it wont be nearly as bad as I imagine it would be, but at least I wont look back in 10 years time and kick myself for not grabbing the opportunity with both hands.
I look forward to realising my full potential!